Saturday, May 23, 2009

My Life in a Nutshell (recent catchup)

I meet a gal, thought we could be good friends. (it has been a long time since I've had a "girl" friend). Hung out all the time. She was great. She started caring-on with my husband behind my back. Planing and plotting to be together. Husband crossed a line. I yelled and hollered, spit, slobbered and cried. Husband said he loves me and only wants to be with me. Fine after many weeks of soul searching i decided if he would abide by a few simple rules then we would try it again.

The Rules you may ask?
1. What the movie Fireproof. (i also wanted him to take the intitative to get the book and work the days)
2. Develope a relationship with God.
3. DECLUTTER (my house is a wreak, much like my life)
4. Make a list of what it means to be a good husband and what a good marriage consist of.
5. Make a list of what it is to be a good dad to Tara. (very specific)

He did really good for a while. Made me feel like the center of the universe. Now not so much. He is now going to church, rented the movie, bought the book but didn't journal like it said and stopped after 17 days. House is still a wreak and i have no list's. In the mean time, said ex-bestfriend was/is my employee. I know, I know, not the smartest thing to be BFF's with an employee. I forgave and tried to get past the past. I did very well. Now said ex-bestfriend is going and telling another employee something i said behind her back, she also told something else which she shouldn't of. Now I'm very mad at her and no longer want to work with her. I'd love nothing more than to fire her, I'm so so so tempted. So this person, that i have known for 14 years, that she was telling things to takes me aside today and ask me about it. We talked and got things straighted out. I'm just really ticked that ex-BFF has the nerve to go saying things. She not very mature. I want to go to her house and make her life miserable. I won't cuz i don't like drama and this would just make matters worse. At the same time, I DON'T LIKE DRAMA and this gal is just piling it up high.

Now, with all that said. I have come to realize that while i love my husband, I really don't like him. He is demanding and overbearing. He is moody, grumpy and ill all the time. For the most part, no one like him. I can't say anything about work or he gets pissy (I'm the boss, he's the employee).

I don't know what to do.

1 comment:

tisha said...

Hi Wendi - I'm sooo very sorry to read this. Only you can decide what is best for you and your life. If I may suggest something...read the long quote on the right side of your blog that starts out like this, "Every relationship in your life is a current moving you toward your dreams or away from them. " Read it. YOU have the power. YOU make the decision on what is best for YOU. take care of yourself.