My Life in a Nutshell (recent catchup)

I meet a gal, thought we could be good friends. (it has been a long time since I've had a "girl" friend). Hung out all the time. She was great. She started caring-on with my husband behind my back. Planing and plotting to be together. Husband crossed a line. I yelled and hollered, spit, slobbered and cried. Husband said he loves me and only wants to be with me. Fine after many weeks of soul searching i decided if he would abide by a few simple rules then we would try it again.

The Rules you may ask?
1. What the movie Fireproof. (i also wanted him to take the intitative to get the book and work the days)
2. Develope a relationship with God.
3. DECLUTTER (my house is a wreak, much like my life)
4. Make a list of what it means to be a good husband and what a good marriage consist of.
5. Make a list of what it is to be a good dad to Tara. (very specific)

He did really good for a while. Made me feel like the center of the universe. Now not so much. He is now going to church, rented the movie, bought the book but didn't journal like it said and stopped after 17 days. House is still a wreak and i have no list's. In the mean time, said ex-bestfriend was/is my employee. I know, I know, not the smartest thing to be BFF's with an employee. I forgave and tried to get past the past. I did very well. Now said ex-bestfriend is going and telling another employee something i said behind her back, she also told something else which she shouldn't of. Now I'm very mad at her and no longer want to work with her. I'd love nothing more than to fire her, I'm so so so tempted. So this person, that i have known for 14 years, that she was telling things to takes me aside today and ask me about it. We talked and got things straighted out. I'm just really ticked that ex-BFF has the nerve to go saying things. She not very mature. I want to go to her house and make her life miserable. I won't cuz i don't like drama and this would just make matters worse. At the same time, I DON'T LIKE DRAMA and this gal is just piling it up high.

Now, with all that said. I have come to realize that while i love my husband, I really don't like him. He is demanding and overbearing. He is moody, grumpy and ill all the time. For the most part, no one like him. I can't say anything about work or he gets pissy (I'm the boss, he's the employee).

I don't know what to do.

Vacation is coming

We leave for Christmas vacation in 10 days. I'm so excited. I think mostly to get away from the day to day hectic life that i never thought i would be living. I'm a simple, make-do, drama-free kinda gal. I moved to Florida from NC to get away from the drama that my in laws caused, and now i am looking forward to returning only because my once boring life is extremely CRAZY.

I always feel overwhelmed and like i never get anything accomplished. That's one reason why I'm so absent around here and on my spark page. I was spending hours "unwinding" in the evening reading and updating my blogs and spark page and i knew i wasn't getting anything don like that. Just because I'm home doesn't mean the work is over, i often have many many hours of paperwork, phone calls and other things to do. I'm amazed that i was able to lose any weight at all.


Callgone take me away!!!

Turkey Day

HAPPY THANKSGIVING ALL!!

Well, I've pretty much taken some time off. I meet my Christmas goal of 299 and just kinda fizzled out. My family and I leave for NC and my in-laws in exactly 3 weeks and two day. So I have given myself a new challenge. To loose 10 pounds in the time between the day after Thanksgiving and December 20. I have to get back on track!!!

Meme

The rules? Answer the following questions in one word and then pass it on to others.

Where is your cell phone? kitchen
Where is your significant other? couch
Your hair color? chestnut
Your mother? cooking
Your father? gone
Your favorite thing? laptop
Your dream last night? odd
Your dream/goal? living
The room you’re in? cold
Your hobby? sewing
Your fear? death
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Jacksonville
Where were you last night? work
What you’re not? drama
One of your wish-list items? cleanliness
Where you grew up? bartow
Last thing you did? nails
What are you wearing? jammies
Your TV? news
Your pet? best
Your computer? Toshiba
Your mood? mellow
Missing someone? baby
Your car? dream
Something you’re not wearing? thong
Favorite store? Wal-Mart
Your summer? WORK
Love someone? family
Your favorite color? PINK!!!!
When is the last time you laughed? movies
Last time you cried? awhile

been awhile

Sorry i haven't been around lately but i've been super busy with work. My little company is just growing so fast it makes my head spin. I sometimes feel like i'm in over my head and very very overwhelmed. I thank God for my mom. She's super and seems like she can handle anything. We are hiring someone to do our billing so that will free up some days for both mom and i. i'm looking forward to that. I've haven't been doing so well with my "diet", so i haven't lost anymore but i haven't gained either. Not real sure how that's happened?!?! I hope to get back into the swing of things first of next week. I'd make it sooner but notes are due Monday morning and i HATE paperwork (bet ya never heard me say that before)! But without it I don't get paid. While i truely do love what i do, i can't do it for free.

The new kitten somehow crawled into the heat register last night and from that made it into the crawl-space under the house(the 10 inches or so that's pure insulation). We had to make a hole in the dinning room floor get her out. That's just something else to stress over. I really wanted to kill her but she's just so darn cute and the doggies love to play with her. She's funner than "pink elephant" and it squeaks.

I hope everyone is doing a great job and not stressing. Keep up all the great work.

I'm a loser!

I was or am down to 298 this morning so to reward myself i went and had my nails done. They are so cute, i usually do my own nails but my daughter went for a hair cut so i thought i deserved it. She did a much better job than i could ever do, and they are so so so super shinny.

S-U-G-A-R ! ! !

Aunt Flo is visiting so i decided that i wouldn't count calories, i would just sit back and relax as i can get very cranky and snappy during this time. I have been very very bad. Sweet tea two days in a row and tonight i bought a pumpkin pie at Sam's Club and a big tub of Cool Whip Lite. This was too too too good. As i was finishing up my big 'ole piece of pie i started to get light headed and the room began to spin like i was high. i got high off the sugar. WOW. I had heard about this but didn't actually believe it could happen. It was kinda scary. Now i am going to challenge myself to cut out sugar. My Tupperware lady can go one for hours about how bad sugar is and that it will cause cancer and kill you and so on. I think i will listen to her next time he goes off an a tangent.