We leave for Christmas vacation in 10 days. I'm so excited. I think mostly to get away from the day to day hectic life that i never thought i would be living. I'm a simple, make-do, drama-free kinda gal. I moved to Florida from NC to get away from the drama that my in laws caused, and now i am looking forward to returning only because my once boring life is extremely CRAZY.
I always feel overwhelmed and like i never get anything accomplished. That's one reason why I'm so absent around here and on my spark page. I was spending hours "unwinding" in the evening reading and updating my blogs and spark page and i knew i wasn't getting anything don like that. Just because I'm home doesn't mean the work is over, i often have many many hours of paperwork, phone calls and other things to do. I'm amazed that i was able to lose any weight at all.
Callgone take me away!!!
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Turkey Day
HAPPY THANKSGIVING ALL!!
Well, I've pretty much taken some time off. I meet my Christmas goal of 299 and just kinda fizzled out. My family and I leave for NC and my in-laws in exactly 3 weeks and two day. So I have given myself a new challenge. To loose 10 pounds in the time between the day after Thanksgiving and December 20. I have to get back on track!!!
Well, I've pretty much taken some time off. I meet my Christmas goal of 299 and just kinda fizzled out. My family and I leave for NC and my in-laws in exactly 3 weeks and two day. So I have given myself a new challenge. To loose 10 pounds in the time between the day after Thanksgiving and December 20. I have to get back on track!!!
Meme
The rules? Answer the following questions in one word and then pass it on to others.
Where is your cell phone? kitchen
Where is your significant other? couch
Your hair color? chestnut
Your mother? cooking
Your father? gone
Your favorite thing? laptop
Your dream last night? odd
Your dream/goal? living
The room you’re in? cold
Your hobby? sewing
Your fear? death
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Jacksonville
Where were you last night? work
What you’re not? drama
One of your wish-list items? cleanliness
Where you grew up? bartow
Last thing you did? nails
What are you wearing? jammies
Your TV? news
Your pet? best
Your computer? Toshiba
Your mood? mellow
Missing someone? baby
Your car? dream
Something you’re not wearing? thong
Favorite store? Wal-Mart
Your summer? WORK
Love someone? family
Your favorite color? PINK!!!!
When is the last time you laughed? movies
Last time you cried? awhile
Where is your cell phone? kitchen
Where is your significant other? couch
Your hair color? chestnut
Your mother? cooking
Your father? gone
Your favorite thing? laptop
Your dream last night? odd
Your dream/goal? living
The room you’re in? cold
Your hobby? sewing
Your fear? death
Where do you want to be in 6 years? Jacksonville
Where were you last night? work
What you’re not? drama
One of your wish-list items? cleanliness
Where you grew up? bartow
Last thing you did? nails
What are you wearing? jammies
Your TV? news
Your pet? best
Your computer? Toshiba
Your mood? mellow
Missing someone? baby
Your car? dream
Something you’re not wearing? thong
Favorite store? Wal-Mart
Your summer? WORK
Love someone? family
Your favorite color? PINK!!!!
When is the last time you laughed? movies
Last time you cried? awhile
Thursday, November 20, 2008
been awhile
Sorry i haven't been around lately but i've been super busy with work. My little company is just growing so fast it makes my head spin. I sometimes feel like i'm in over my head and very very overwhelmed. I thank God for my mom. She's super and seems like she can handle anything. We are hiring someone to do our billing so that will free up some days for both mom and i. i'm looking forward to that. I've haven't been doing so well with my "diet", so i haven't lost anymore but i haven't gained either. Not real sure how that's happened?!?! I hope to get back into the swing of things first of next week. I'd make it sooner but notes are due Monday morning and i HATE paperwork (bet ya never heard me say that before)! But without it I don't get paid. While i truely do love what i do, i can't do it for free.
The new kitten somehow crawled into the heat register last night and from that made it into the crawl-space under the house(the 10 inches or so that's pure insulation). We had to make a hole in the dinning room floor get her out. That's just something else to stress over. I really wanted to kill her but she's just so darn cute and the doggies love to play with her. She's funner than "pink elephant" and it squeaks.
I hope everyone is doing a great job and not stressing. Keep up all the great work.
The new kitten somehow crawled into the heat register last night and from that made it into the crawl-space under the house(the 10 inches or so that's pure insulation). We had to make a hole in the dinning room floor get her out. That's just something else to stress over. I really wanted to kill her but she's just so darn cute and the doggies love to play with her. She's funner than "pink elephant" and it squeaks.
I hope everyone is doing a great job and not stressing. Keep up all the great work.
Thursday, October 30, 2008
I'm a loser!
I was or am down to 298 this morning so to reward myself i went and had my nails done. They are so cute, i usually do my own nails but my daughter went for a hair cut so i thought i deserved it. She did a much better job than i could ever do, and they are so so so super shinny.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
S-U-G-A-R ! ! !
Aunt Flo is visiting so i decided that i wouldn't count calories, i would just sit back and relax as i can get very cranky and snappy during this time. I have been very very bad. Sweet tea two days in a row and tonight i bought a pumpkin pie at Sam's Club and a big tub of Cool Whip Lite. This was too too too good. As i was finishing up my big 'ole piece of pie i started to get light headed and the room began to spin like i was high. i got high off the sugar. WOW. I had heard about this but didn't actually believe it could happen. It was kinda scary. Now i am going to challenge myself to cut out sugar. My Tupperware lady can go one for hours about how bad sugar is and that it will cause cancer and kill you and so on. I think i will listen to her next time he goes off an a tangent.
Friday, October 17, 2008
Saturday, October 11, 2008
I'm still here
Hello fellow bloggers and those whom for some strange reason read my blog. My last post was 10 days ago, since then i have had a gain. On Monday, the official weigh in day I was at 311. Wow, I have had a few bad days but i didn't think they were that bad! I have struggled to stay on track and "readjust" my life without my beloved sweet tea. Lately I have found myself making coffee which the way i like it is full of calories when if i would've just had a reasonable amount of sweet tea i would have come out better.
I discovered SparkPeople.com and it is really amazing. I so glad i found it. I have been using Fitday for years and Sparkpeople just blows FitDay away! I have spent allot of my free time reading the articles, blogs, posts.
My husband started to diet with me. He's been super supportive! We go walk together every night although I can't keep up with him. I'm working on it though. Sometimes we take our daughter, she's getting alittle chunky. Five times around the park track is a mile. I can do it in about 25 minutes. Well i could be i still have to stop for a few minutes to get my back to stop hurting. I bought a resistance band today, I'm going to watch some of the video's on Spark people to learn the best ways to use it.
Have you seen this video? I can't believe we all allow the media to dictate what beauty is.
I discovered SparkPeople.com and it is really amazing. I so glad i found it. I have been using Fitday for years and Sparkpeople just blows FitDay away! I have spent allot of my free time reading the articles, blogs, posts.
My husband started to diet with me. He's been super supportive! We go walk together every night although I can't keep up with him. I'm working on it though. Sometimes we take our daughter, she's getting alittle chunky. Five times around the park track is a mile. I can do it in about 25 minutes. Well i could be i still have to stop for a few minutes to get my back to stop hurting. I bought a resistance band today, I'm going to watch some of the video's on Spark people to learn the best ways to use it.
Have you seen this video? I can't believe we all allow the media to dictate what beauty is.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
CCCC Weekly check in (LATE)
Sorry I'm late but this week has turned out to be super busy and next week with my business partner gone on a cruise and me left holding the company cell phone will be even busier! I started this journey on Sept 18th at 319# and was surprised how quickly i was able to lose a few pounds. I wanted to make my weight loss very gradual so that my new lifestyle would be more like a habit rather than a short term quick fix. Aiming for a lose of 2 pounds a week. Monday morning when i stepped on the scales 308# was the reading i received. WOW 11 pounds in 11 days, that was really not what i expected. Honestly I haven't been doing that incredibly good. I still have ice cream and sweeten coffee although i have given up my beloved sweet tea for water. I haven't exercised but twice a week. I can't imagine what it would be like if i were being strict and hard core like some people are.
The other night my husband and I went to the little park down the road from our house and was going to walk around the walking path. As soon as i got out of the car and walked through the gates i could hear a small "meow, meow" and it got louder and louder. Out from the bushes wobbled a small kitten. I tried to reach down and give the little guy some loven but he or she ran from my outreached hand. So we began to walk, and i could hear it again "meow, meow" we look back and itty bitty was following us around the path. Three laps we made and itty bitty followed us like our shadow the entire time "meow, meow" all the way. Our little shadow made the mistake of climbing up in a bush beside the bench we stopped at and gave me the exact opportunity to grab him. Now he resides under my bed. He is so cute. If i could ever figure out how to put pictures on the thing i would post a pic of him or her. Shadow is so small I'm not sure which shim is. The dogs really want to play with the kitty and my 9 year old cat is so pi$$ed at me he wants to kill me in my sleep.
Today i was really bad. We, my business partner(AKA Mom) and I had a early meeting in Jacksonville out near the beach. I rode into town (town - what you call the big city when you live in the country) with her and she always stops at Starbucks before one of these meetings. So of course I got me a Venti coffee Frap. (YUMMY!) I had a 100 cal yogurt for breakfast. After mom dropped me off at my house about 1pm we made arrangements to meet for lunch (we both had to go home to let our doggies out for a quick potty break) I meet mom at Dick's Wings about a mile and a half from my house. I got the special . . . It came with a drink. My first sweet tea in more than a week. It was so good. I had the chicken tenders (FRIED) with the waffle fries (FRIED AGAIN). I used two sauces of the cajun ranch (PURE FAT). After doing the math as best i could 1900 calories for lunch! GADZUKES!! Anyhow, i ended the day at 2900. That's along ways from the 1800 - 2200 that i have set as goal.
My favorite advice that my mom ever gave me is "As we progress, sometimes we will regress." Basically accept that I will fall short of the goal but it's all in an attempt to reach that goal. Just because one day was, um, crappy doesn't mean I've failed and should give up, it is expected and gonna happen. All part of the journey.
The other night my husband and I went to the little park down the road from our house and was going to walk around the walking path. As soon as i got out of the car and walked through the gates i could hear a small "meow, meow" and it got louder and louder. Out from the bushes wobbled a small kitten. I tried to reach down and give the little guy some loven but he or she ran from my outreached hand. So we began to walk, and i could hear it again "meow, meow" we look back and itty bitty was following us around the path. Three laps we made and itty bitty followed us like our shadow the entire time "meow, meow" all the way. Our little shadow made the mistake of climbing up in a bush beside the bench we stopped at and gave me the exact opportunity to grab him. Now he resides under my bed. He is so cute. If i could ever figure out how to put pictures on the thing i would post a pic of him or her. Shadow is so small I'm not sure which shim is. The dogs really want to play with the kitty and my 9 year old cat is so pi$$ed at me he wants to kill me in my sleep.
Today i was really bad. We, my business partner(AKA Mom) and I had a early meeting in Jacksonville out near the beach. I rode into town (town - what you call the big city when you live in the country) with her and she always stops at Starbucks before one of these meetings. So of course I got me a Venti coffee Frap. (YUMMY!) I had a 100 cal yogurt for breakfast. After mom dropped me off at my house about 1pm we made arrangements to meet for lunch (we both had to go home to let our doggies out for a quick potty break) I meet mom at Dick's Wings about a mile and a half from my house. I got the special . . . It came with a drink. My first sweet tea in more than a week. It was so good. I had the chicken tenders (FRIED) with the waffle fries (FRIED AGAIN). I used two sauces of the cajun ranch (PURE FAT). After doing the math as best i could 1900 calories for lunch! GADZUKES!! Anyhow, i ended the day at 2900. That's along ways from the 1800 - 2200 that i have set as goal.
My favorite advice that my mom ever gave me is "As we progress, sometimes we will regress." Basically accept that I will fall short of the goal but it's all in an attempt to reach that goal. Just because one day was, um, crappy doesn't mean I've failed and should give up, it is expected and gonna happen. All part of the journey.
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Real Quick
I have had a great week! My official start all over again day was the 18 and since then I have lost 8 pounds. I have kept track of my calorie intake, exercised and as of today, stopped drinking sweet tea. I'm still not crazy about water like i hope one day to be but at least I'm drinking it. We went to Red Lobster for lunch and I may have overdone it but i made up for it at dinner (my night to cook) with stir fry. Then . . . I had ice cream, but still i came in under my calories for the day.
Monday, September 22, 2008
How i spent my day
Well, Biffle won the race and The Jags won their game. My husband and daughter and I went into Jacksonville today to pick up some stuff from Walmart and get some lunch. When i got up at 11am i had a yogurt so on the way to town my husband wanted to know where I wanted to eat, i sat and dreaded the thought of eating and not knowing what to do or where to go. I just kept thinking i should've stayed at home and eaten, where it was safe. We ended up at Salsarita's and opted for the taco salad. I knew the fried taco bowl was not a good idea but i like them alot. I ordered it and i ate. It was yummy! Later i can home and got online hoping i could get some nutritional info from the web and found out that Salsarita's has a nice way of picking your toppings and it will calculate all your nutritional info. I weighed in at 998 calories. I had a ham and swiss for dinner, i grilled it with some butter so that was about 400 calories so lets see for the day. . .
yogurt 100
lunch 1000
sweet tea 350
dinner 400
that's a total of 1850.
My husband and I spent most of the day building new closet shelves in our bedroom. The crappy wire rack had failed to hold up so all my clothes have been in a pile for a week. Whenever my husband builds something he does it to the extreme. Now my closet shelves will hold ME. While he was cutting and drilling and didn't need my help i was cleaning and organizing my sewing table. I haven't been near my sewing table ever since we moved in a year ago, I've just kept piling it up and neglecting it. So today I cleaned and organized it. I have so many projects that i need to finish and even more i need to start. When i sew I can spend hours at my table not even thinking about food or eating. I just have so much other stuff to do i keep telling myself, "when my paperwork it caught up", "when the kitchen is clean". There's a million things i should be doing but I'm a procrastinator. I wish i weren't.
yogurt 100
lunch 1000
sweet tea 350
dinner 400
that's a total of 1850.
My husband and I spent most of the day building new closet shelves in our bedroom. The crappy wire rack had failed to hold up so all my clothes have been in a pile for a week. Whenever my husband builds something he does it to the extreme. Now my closet shelves will hold ME. While he was cutting and drilling and didn't need my help i was cleaning and organizing my sewing table. I haven't been near my sewing table ever since we moved in a year ago, I've just kept piling it up and neglecting it. So today I cleaned and organized it. I have so many projects that i need to finish and even more i need to start. When i sew I can spend hours at my table not even thinking about food or eating. I just have so much other stuff to do i keep telling myself, "when my paperwork it caught up", "when the kitchen is clean". There's a million things i should be doing but I'm a procrastinator. I wish i weren't.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
I saved the day
I started out really bad today. I usually make sweet tea to take with me every morning, Saturday mornings are my earliest day. I have to leave the house by 9:10am. The rest of the week i leave around 10am so I didn't wake up in time to make my beloved sweet tea today. When i ended up at Panera this morning i thought if i ordered a bacon, egg and cheese on sourdough i would be safe, after all sourdough isn't that bad. I guess i overlooked the bacon, egg and cheese.
Bacon, egg and cheese on sourdough from panera 510
Well still that's not where i went wrong. Coffee came with my breakfast bundle and i knew i had to have some caffeine so i wouldn't get a headache.
coffee (one cup caff, one decaf) 0 (yea zero!)
Oh wait i was telling you about where i went wrong, i can drink coffee black. I like it sweetened and creamed. If you've ever been to the coffee bar at Panera you know that there is everything wonderful for your coffee, the options are almost endless. I really like turbinado sugar so i grabbed a few (19) packets. I also have to have my creamer, when i buy creamer for the house i use land o lakes fat free half and half, its very creamy and think, i really like it. The stuff at Panera isn't fat free. . .
19 packets of turbinado sugar 380
half and half creamer 9oz. 350
On the good side again, i had a cup of fresh fruit, honeydew, cantaloupe, grapes and my favorite fresh pineapple
fresh fruit 70
So at this point I'm up to 1310 for the day and have only had breakfast. GASP!
What's a girl to do? Starve, yes starve the rest of the day. No, that's a bad idea. If i starve myself i will go crazy, so later i had a grilled chicken sandwich from ChickfilA.
Grilled chicken sandwich from ChickfilA 270
I didn't get home until almost 6pm and I had ChickfilA so late i wasn't really hungry. I told my daughter that was going crazy to get out of the house because she hasn't been anywhere but school and home since she can't remember when, her birthday she thinks, that we would go to the park and walk around the track. When we got home it was 8pm, so i just had grapes for dinner.
Grapes 221
I know i shouldn't have but my heartburn was so bad that i had a little ice cream about 11pm.
Edy's Chocolate Ice cream 250
That leaves me at 2051 for the day. I'm sitting here now reading others blogs and updating mine trying to keep busy and my mind off food. I should just go to bed. Night all.
Bacon, egg and cheese on sourdough from panera 510
Well still that's not where i went wrong. Coffee came with my breakfast bundle and i knew i had to have some caffeine so i wouldn't get a headache.
coffee (one cup caff, one decaf) 0 (yea zero!)
Oh wait i was telling you about where i went wrong, i can drink coffee black. I like it sweetened and creamed. If you've ever been to the coffee bar at Panera you know that there is everything wonderful for your coffee, the options are almost endless. I really like turbinado sugar so i grabbed a few (19) packets. I also have to have my creamer, when i buy creamer for the house i use land o lakes fat free half and half, its very creamy and think, i really like it. The stuff at Panera isn't fat free. . .
19 packets of turbinado sugar 380
half and half creamer 9oz. 350
On the good side again, i had a cup of fresh fruit, honeydew, cantaloupe, grapes and my favorite fresh pineapple
fresh fruit 70
So at this point I'm up to 1310 for the day and have only had breakfast. GASP!
What's a girl to do? Starve, yes starve the rest of the day. No, that's a bad idea. If i starve myself i will go crazy, so later i had a grilled chicken sandwich from ChickfilA.
Grilled chicken sandwich from ChickfilA 270
I didn't get home until almost 6pm and I had ChickfilA so late i wasn't really hungry. I told my daughter that was going crazy to get out of the house because she hasn't been anywhere but school and home since she can't remember when, her birthday she thinks, that we would go to the park and walk around the track. When we got home it was 8pm, so i just had grapes for dinner.
Grapes 221
I know i shouldn't have but my heartburn was so bad that i had a little ice cream about 11pm.
Edy's Chocolate Ice cream 250
That leaves me at 2051 for the day. I'm sitting here now reading others blogs and updating mine trying to keep busy and my mind off food. I should just go to bed. Night all.
Friday, September 19, 2008
Starting Today
Today is it! The first day of the rest of my life. No, for real. I started my "diet" today. The real one. I didn't start out thinking this will be the day and by lunch time all had been forgotten. I did pretty good today. I have been trying to get myself off caffeine so i can start drinking only water. My husband had been doing it for a week or more now and I'm so proud of him. I am really gonna do it this time. I've just about got myself weened off sweet tea. Tomorrow i will only have a pint and continue that for about 4 days and then WHAM! Water only baby!
I have a very hectic lifestyle so eating right is the biggest challenge for me. I own a personal care service company. Between working with my own people, i have to check up on my employee's drum up new business, run want ads and hire new employee's and lord, lets not forget the paperwork. I am so behind on my paperwork (GASP). I also spend allot of time in my car driving from one home to another to another. It's hard to eat healthy when you are constantly on the go. I've decided to start packing a lunch and snack bag. This will be a big help. I never eat breakfast which i need to start doing. I went to the grocery store today and Sam's Club yesterday. I bought all sorts of good stuff for me and my family. I have all the right things in the house and almost none of the bad.
I'm going to eat 5-6 times a day, breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner and maybe a snack. I'd like to keep my calories under 2000. That will be easy without the sweet tea. Today for i had
Breakfast
Apple 75
Snack
Granola Bar 120
Lunch
Chicken sandwich 450
Dinner
Quesadilla's 650
Sweet Tea 4500
Total 1745
I will take my vitamin's. I take a multi-vitamin daily but i split it half in the am and half in the pm. I take calcium twice a day, an OMEGA once, half a B complex in the morning, an aspirin in the morning and I was taking a C0Q10 but Sam's doesn't carry the 50mg anymore and I read that anything higher can cause insomnia. If anyone knows where i can get it in 50mg let me know. There's some C0Q10 in my multi-vitamin but it doesn't say how much.
I will exercise. I would have taken a walk this evening but i had to go to open house at my daughters school. That went OK. They ring the bell every 10-15 minutes and the parents have to go around to all the classes in the order your child has them. Luckily i didn't have to sit in any "student desks", dodged that bullet. Tomorrow i will go for a walk, one of the ladies i work with has a goal to exercise so i will get her up and out. She's slow so I may have to lap her. I've had a bad back ever since childbirth and my back will start to hurt so bad I can barely stand it. I'll have to sit down for a few minutes to get it to stop throbbing. This frustrates me because I'm not tired but i can't go on. I'm hoping that the back will ease up when i lose some weight but honestly it was the same way 80 pounds ago.
I got my hair cut (off) before open house, so when i got home i couldn't wait to get in the shower and wash all the stray hairs off me. I've been wanting to get my hair cut short but i think i look even fatter with it short so I've been putting it off. Today I did it. I have natural curl so of course now it doesn't know how to behave, I'll have to tame it i guess.
I took my doggies to the groomers today. They were so excited to see me when i got there to pick them up. I love it when they are freshly groomed. They smell so good, but they look so skinny. I wished that would work for me.
Well for some reason, i haven't been able to get to sleep until after 2am so I'm gonna go try to get in bed early tonight but i know it won't happen.
I have a very hectic lifestyle so eating right is the biggest challenge for me. I own a personal care service company. Between working with my own people, i have to check up on my employee's drum up new business, run want ads and hire new employee's and lord, lets not forget the paperwork. I am so behind on my paperwork (GASP). I also spend allot of time in my car driving from one home to another to another. It's hard to eat healthy when you are constantly on the go. I've decided to start packing a lunch and snack bag. This will be a big help. I never eat breakfast which i need to start doing. I went to the grocery store today and Sam's Club yesterday. I bought all sorts of good stuff for me and my family. I have all the right things in the house and almost none of the bad.
I'm going to eat 5-6 times a day, breakfast, snack, lunch, snack, dinner and maybe a snack. I'd like to keep my calories under 2000. That will be easy without the sweet tea. Today for i had
Breakfast
Apple 75
Snack
Granola Bar 120
Lunch
Chicken sandwich 450
Dinner
Quesadilla's 650
Sweet Tea 4500
Total 1745
I will take my vitamin's. I take a multi-vitamin daily but i split it half in the am and half in the pm. I take calcium twice a day, an OMEGA once, half a B complex in the morning, an aspirin in the morning and I was taking a C0Q10 but Sam's doesn't carry the 50mg anymore and I read that anything higher can cause insomnia. If anyone knows where i can get it in 50mg let me know. There's some C0Q10 in my multi-vitamin but it doesn't say how much.
I will exercise. I would have taken a walk this evening but i had to go to open house at my daughters school. That went OK. They ring the bell every 10-15 minutes and the parents have to go around to all the classes in the order your child has them. Luckily i didn't have to sit in any "student desks", dodged that bullet. Tomorrow i will go for a walk, one of the ladies i work with has a goal to exercise so i will get her up and out. She's slow so I may have to lap her. I've had a bad back ever since childbirth and my back will start to hurt so bad I can barely stand it. I'll have to sit down for a few minutes to get it to stop throbbing. This frustrates me because I'm not tired but i can't go on. I'm hoping that the back will ease up when i lose some weight but honestly it was the same way 80 pounds ago.
I got my hair cut (off) before open house, so when i got home i couldn't wait to get in the shower and wash all the stray hairs off me. I've been wanting to get my hair cut short but i think i look even fatter with it short so I've been putting it off. Today I did it. I have natural curl so of course now it doesn't know how to behave, I'll have to tame it i guess.
I took my doggies to the groomers today. They were so excited to see me when i got there to pick them up. I love it when they are freshly groomed. They smell so good, but they look so skinny. I wished that would work for me.
Well for some reason, i haven't been able to get to sleep until after 2am so I'm gonna go try to get in bed early tonight but i know it won't happen.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
36 ways to reduce stress
36 Ways To Reduce Stress
1. Pray
2. Go to bed on time.
3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4. Say "No" to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health
5. Delegate tasks to capable others.
6. Simplify and unclutter your life.
7. Less is more. (Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)
8. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
9. Pace yourself. Spread out difficult projects over time; don't lump the hard things all together.
10. Take one day at a time and turn it over to God.
11. Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you to do and let go of the anxiety. If you can't do anything about a situation... Forget it.
12. Live within your budget; don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
13. Have backups - an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.
14. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.
15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.
16. Carry a Bible with you to read while waiting in line.
17. Get enough exercise.
18. Eat right.
19. Get organized so everything has its place.
20. Listen to a tape while driving that can help improve your quality of life.
21. Write thoughts and inspirations down.
22. Every day, find time to be alone.
23. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.
24. Make friends with Godly people.
25. Keep a folder of favorite scriptures on hand.
26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a simple "Thank you, God"
27. Laugh.
28.Laugh some more!
29. Take your work seriously, but yourself not at all.
30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can).
31 . Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most).
32. Sit on your ego.
33. Talk less; listen more.
34. Slow down.
35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.
36. Every night before bed, think of one thing you're grateful for that you've never been grateful for before.
GOD HAS A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU.
1. Pray
2. Go to bed on time.
3. Get up on time so you can start the day unrushed.
4. Say "No" to projects that won't fit into your time schedule, or that will compromise your mental health
5. Delegate tasks to capable others.
6. Simplify and unclutter your life.
7. Less is more. (Although one is often not enough, two are often too many.)
8. Allow extra time to do things and to get to places.
9. Pace yourself. Spread out difficult projects over time; don't lump the hard things all together.
10. Take one day at a time and turn it over to God.
11. Separate worries from concerns. If a situation is a concern, find out what God would have you to do and let go of the anxiety. If you can't do anything about a situation... Forget it.
12. Live within your budget; don't use credit cards for ordinary purchases.
13. Have backups - an extra car key in your wallet, an extra house key buried in the garden, extra stamps, etc.
14. K.M.S. (Keep Mouth Shut). This single piece of advice can prevent an enormous amount of trouble.
15. Do something for the Kid in You everyday.
16. Carry a Bible with you to read while waiting in line.
17. Get enough exercise.
18. Eat right.
19. Get organized so everything has its place.
20. Listen to a tape while driving that can help improve your quality of life.
21. Write thoughts and inspirations down.
22. Every day, find time to be alone.
23. Having problems? Talk to God on the spot. Try to nip small problems in the bud. Don't wait until it's time to go to bed to try and pray.
24. Make friends with Godly people.
25. Keep a folder of favorite scriptures on hand.
26. Remember that the shortest bridge between despair and hope is often a simple "Thank you, God"
27. Laugh.
28.Laugh some more!
29. Take your work seriously, but yourself not at all.
30. Develop a forgiving attitude (most people are doing the best they can).
31 . Be kind to unkind people (they probably need it the most).
32. Sit on your ego.
33. Talk less; listen more.
34. Slow down.
35. Remind yourself that you are not the general manager of the universe.
36. Every night before bed, think of one thing you're grateful for that you've never been grateful for before.
GOD HAS A WAY OF TURNING THINGS AROUND FOR YOU.
Tuesday, September 9, 2008
Paperwork and Brownies!
I have two quarterly meetings tomorrow so i had a ton a paperwork to do to get ready. Honey made me brownies to get through it all. I know it's not on my diet but who can resist a warm chocolaty chewy brownie with a cold side of chocolate ice cream? NOT ME!! I now have what i need to get through it all. P.S. Honey made dinner too, aren't i the luckiest gal alive?
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
In the water?
I spent $10,000.00 on a RainSoft water treatment system thinking that I might drink the water. I still can't. Don't get me wrong it's one of the best investments I've ever made. My appliances will last longer, my clothes will last longer, my skin and hair will benefit. The water has no bad smell or taste, I just can't drink it. My sweet tea taste better than it EVER HAS!!! Why can't I bring myself to just drink the water? I really do want to drink it. I just like my sweet tea more.
Sunday, June 8, 2008
Hello
I'm back up to my highest weight again. How can I let this happen?? This was gonna be my year! My mom says when i get disgusted enough i will take action and do something about it. I'm awfully disgusted, but i guess just not enough.
We bought a water softening/purifying system last week. I'm hoping this will help me now that i can't use the gross Florida water as an excuse. My water is now amazing, I love it!
Summer has arrived in Florida, its so hot already! I'm gonna hate July and August. My least favorite thing to do is to sweat. It's kinda hard to exercise without getting sweaty.
We bought a water softening/purifying system last week. I'm hoping this will help me now that i can't use the gross Florida water as an excuse. My water is now amazing, I love it!
Summer has arrived in Florida, its so hot already! I'm gonna hate July and August. My least favorite thing to do is to sweat. It's kinda hard to exercise without getting sweaty.
Monday, February 18, 2008
Hey all, i haven't fallen off the earth, i've just been real real busy with work. Working 7 days a week sure is taking a toll on me. Now i'm sick with a cold or flu or something and miserable. I can't breathe, can't sleep and don't want to move. Yet i have all this work that still needs to be done and a family and house that still needs a mom. A woman's work is never done.
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
The Scales aren't moving
I don't understand, the scales aren't moving. I seem to be stuck right were i started. I feel like i'm doing a good job but i haven't been rewarded by the scales. This is very frustrating. I keep chugging along and hope to see a better readout but its just not there. What should I do?
Friday, February 1, 2008
All is Well
I've really been having a great week. Over all an A week. After 6 weeks of not getting paid i finally got all my back pay today. Yeah, i can make the mortgage! I'm so relived to be able to pay the bills and not worry, worrying can really affect your eating, especially when you're an emotional eater. I think that is one reason I've had such a hard time taking control of my "diet".
This week was also great because i did a great job sticking to my "diet", "lifestyle change", whatever. I ate almost anything i wanted, was never hungry and still stayed under my goal calories. Once i get this mastered I'm going to cut back on the fat grams. I'm amazed how many I'm still consuming. I've been walking some everyday. I look for ways throughout my day to work in a walk and some exercise. Overall I'm pleased and hope the scales reward me on Wednesday.
This week was also great because i did a great job sticking to my "diet", "lifestyle change", whatever. I ate almost anything i wanted, was never hungry and still stayed under my goal calories. Once i get this mastered I'm going to cut back on the fat grams. I'm amazed how many I'm still consuming. I've been walking some everyday. I look for ways throughout my day to work in a walk and some exercise. Overall I'm pleased and hope the scales reward me on Wednesday.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
The Truth IS
sorry it took so long for the reveal. but here it is for those who care. . .
1)My family and I recently moved from Asheville NC, where Andie McDowell lives when she's not acting, modeling and what ever. When my daughter was little i used to take a water aerobics class at the YMCA, I had heard that she often works out up there but hadn't seen her. One day after my class i went to the child care to pick up my daughter. She was happy to see me and glad to be going, she went running through the door, down the hall and around the corner right into Ms. McDowell. My daughter fell to the ground, startled by the bump. Andie helped her to her feet, smiling at her. I was horrified, apologized and quickly left.
2) My husband is always coming up with ways to be his own boss. We opened a Go Kart track but lost our lease when the property owner sold it and they built a strip mall. We then got into the inflatable jump houses and such. The insurance became too high to make any money. Then came the Ice Cream Truck. It is a handy way of making extra money.
3) My mother and I do have matching tattoo's. She got tattooed first and I liked it so much i got one to match.
4) Billy Graham attended Montreat Presbyterian Church when he is home in Black Mountain NC. As a girl, when i lived at the Presbyterian Home for Children we also attended the same church. Some of the kids would go talk to him after the service, i went along but never really talked to him.
5) I am NOT terrified of rats. I actually had a pet rat when i was in high school. Chester. He was the best darn rat a gal could have.
6) See #4 Our Family Therapist told my mother to get rid of her children back in the mid 80's. This was after she was told to spank us every night and that wasn't working. My mother was having a mini mid-life crisis and did what the "experts" said. I guess it was better than drowning us in the bathtub or locking us in the car and driving it into John D Long Lake. Really I have no sympathy for mothers that kill thier kids, there are legal ways of getting rid of your children. My mom and I are best friends now, I know she was just doing the best she could with what she had to work with at the time.
1)My family and I recently moved from Asheville NC, where Andie McDowell lives when she's not acting, modeling and what ever. When my daughter was little i used to take a water aerobics class at the YMCA, I had heard that she often works out up there but hadn't seen her. One day after my class i went to the child care to pick up my daughter. She was happy to see me and glad to be going, she went running through the door, down the hall and around the corner right into Ms. McDowell. My daughter fell to the ground, startled by the bump. Andie helped her to her feet, smiling at her. I was horrified, apologized and quickly left.
2) My husband is always coming up with ways to be his own boss. We opened a Go Kart track but lost our lease when the property owner sold it and they built a strip mall. We then got into the inflatable jump houses and such. The insurance became too high to make any money. Then came the Ice Cream Truck. It is a handy way of making extra money.
3) My mother and I do have matching tattoo's. She got tattooed first and I liked it so much i got one to match.
4) Billy Graham attended Montreat Presbyterian Church when he is home in Black Mountain NC. As a girl, when i lived at the Presbyterian Home for Children we also attended the same church. Some of the kids would go talk to him after the service, i went along but never really talked to him.
5) I am NOT terrified of rats. I actually had a pet rat when i was in high school. Chester. He was the best darn rat a gal could have.
6) See #4 Our Family Therapist told my mother to get rid of her children back in the mid 80's. This was after she was told to spank us every night and that wasn't working. My mother was having a mini mid-life crisis and did what the "experts" said. I guess it was better than drowning us in the bathtub or locking us in the car and driving it into John D Long Lake. Really I have no sympathy for mothers that kill thier kids, there are legal ways of getting rid of your children. My mom and I are best friends now, I know she was just doing the best she could with what she had to work with at the time.
Wednesday, January 30, 2008
"A" day
When I was young, about 16 or 17, I worked at Taco Bell. I loved working at Taco Bell. The best people worked there. I made lots of friends and always had someone to hang out with before, after and during work. One gal often comes back into my mind. Her name was Michelle. Not long after she started working there a rumor started going around that she was schizophrenic, she was somewhat odd, but schizophrenic? I asked how do you know? I was told that she told someone this. I was curious, so I asked her. She told me she was and that she was seeing a therapist regularly. She and I quickly became friends. She was funny, quick witted and loyal, all the best qualities a friend could have. One night after closing she seem down and sad. I asked what was up, and all she would say it that she wasn't having an "A" day. I asked what she meant by this and she told me of a technique that her therapist and her were working on. Every night she would look back on her day and give it a grade, "A" thur "F", like a report card. If it was an "A" day, find what made it an "A" day and implement those same things into the next day. If it was not an"A" day, decide what went wrong and think of ways to overcome these problems tomorrow so an "A" day could be achieved.
It's been almost 20 years since that conversation and I often come back to it in my mind. It can be applied to every aspect of living. . . mental illness, parenting, marriage, work and even dieting.
Today, I achieved an "A" day!! Even better than yesterday. I'm going to look for ways to make tomorrow just as successful, even better!
It's been almost 20 years since that conversation and I often come back to it in my mind. It can be applied to every aspect of living. . . mental illness, parenting, marriage, work and even dieting.
Today, I achieved an "A" day!! Even better than yesterday. I'm going to look for ways to make tomorrow just as successful, even better!
Monday, January 28, 2008
Today was Fabulous!
Yesterday sucked! I have really been struggling with getting this healthier lifestyle started. I had become very content with my weight and life. I honestly found comfort in being overweight and it is or was really hard for me to get past that. Because I was so content with my weight I never admitted that there was a problem. Told myself quite often that I don't overeat. I had this self image of me that was just slightly plump. I now know that I pasted plump about 18 years ago. I am morbidly overweight. I was sitting in Krystal's yesterday having a small snack. 2 cheese Krystal's, a corn pup, chicken bites, fries and a small diet coke. I sat in the back corner and looked around the very very small lobby of this place and noticed that there was mirrors on all the walls that didn't have windows. I followed the mirrors with my eyes around the walls until I came to an unfamiliar face. It was me. I was gross. I sat and stared at the reflection. What have I done? How could I have allowed myself to get to this point? I wanted to cry but I was in such shook that I couldn't. Something inside of me at that moment snapped. Maybe it was a gift from God, like the day He took away my addiction to shopping. I never want to feel that way again when I look at myself.
I've learned from blogging that I am an emotional eater, I never knew what that meant. I also eat when I'm bored. I need to keep busy. My mom scrapbooks, I used to sew but haven't in months and month. You can usually find me right here on the computer. It does keep me occupied and my mind off of shoving food into my mouth.
I woke up today with a renewed sense of determination. Come he11 or high water I'm going to do this. I'm going to turn my life around. I feel like I'll die if i don't and we all know that's true. If I keep going at this pace I'll be dead in ten years.
I had training all day so today was a breeze. I packed a lunch and lots of healthy snacks. I make my am coffee but today I used Splenda instead of sugar and it was good. I took two 33.8oz bottles of water, which i drank. I used low fat dressing instead of mayo on my sandwich. I am just really proud of my good choices, and today, unlike all the days that lead up to today, was easy. I didn't struggle, I never panicked. I just planned and followed through. My mother and I went for a walk around the building and down the dead end road during our lunch break. Today was fabulous!! I can only pray that tomorrow is half a good.
I've learned from blogging that I am an emotional eater, I never knew what that meant. I also eat when I'm bored. I need to keep busy. My mom scrapbooks, I used to sew but haven't in months and month. You can usually find me right here on the computer. It does keep me occupied and my mind off of shoving food into my mouth.
I woke up today with a renewed sense of determination. Come he11 or high water I'm going to do this. I'm going to turn my life around. I feel like I'll die if i don't and we all know that's true. If I keep going at this pace I'll be dead in ten years.
I had training all day so today was a breeze. I packed a lunch and lots of healthy snacks. I make my am coffee but today I used Splenda instead of sugar and it was good. I took two 33.8oz bottles of water, which i drank. I used low fat dressing instead of mayo on my sandwich. I am just really proud of my good choices, and today, unlike all the days that lead up to today, was easy. I didn't struggle, I never panicked. I just planned and followed through. My mother and I went for a walk around the building and down the dead end road during our lunch break. Today was fabulous!! I can only pray that tomorrow is half a good.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Would I lie to YOU?
Today I’m going to lie to you! Thank you very much to Lidian , Hanlie and Life Should Be Stereo Each Day . I want you to expose the lie!
The rules are:
- Link to the person who tagged you. Done.
- Post the rules on your blog. Done.
- Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself. Done.
- Tag six people and at the end of your post, link to their blogs. I’ll leave it up to you to decide whether you want to do it or not.
- Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog. If you are going to do it, please leave me a comment.
- The twist here is, one of the statements is a lie! You have to guess which one and let me know in comments.
Okay, lying over! or this meme...Like most people I've seen who've done it, I am going to invite anyone who wants to do it, to please do so! Please leave me a comment telling that you have, because I would love to read them and see what you have to say! The rules are that you have to list six non-important things about yourself, but one of them is a lie.
The rules are:
- Link to the person who tagged you. Done.
- Post the rules on your blog. Done.
- Share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself. Done.
- Tag six people and at the end of your post, link to their blogs. I’ll leave it up to you to decide whether you want to do it or not.
- Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog. If you are going to do it, please leave me a comment.
- The twist here is, one of the statements is a lie! You have to guess which one and let me know in comments.
- I used to go to the YMCA with Andi McDowell.
- I own a fully stocked Ice Cream Truck.
- My mother and I have matching tattoo's.
- I've meet Billy Graham.
- I'm TERRIFIED of Rats.
- When I was a child I lived in a Home for Children.
Okay, lying over! or this meme...Like most people I've seen who've done it, I am going to invite anyone who wants to do it, to please do so! Please leave me a comment telling that you have, because I would love to read them and see what you have to say! The rules are that you have to list six non-important things about yourself, but one of them is a lie.
Friday, January 25, 2008
A Meme - Eight Things
Eight Things I Am Passionate About
1) my faith in God
2) my husband and marriage
3) my daughter
4) my family and friends
5) my pets Bob our bichon and yellson my cat
6) sewing
7) laundry
8) my work with the disabled
Eight Things I Want to Do Before I Die
1) Be fit and weigh less than 200 lbs!
2) Take a cruise to Bermuda and Alaska
3) Grow my business so big that i don't have to work
4) Get another tattoo
5) Have all my debt paid, including homes and cars
6) Meet my great grand children
7) Go to New York City
8) Be Organized
Eight Things I Say Often
1) “I love you.”
2) “I love you too."
3) “What are you doing?”
4) “Bob needs to go out.”
5) “Did you take Bob out?”
6) “I gotta call my mom”
7) “Honey. . .?”
8) “Put your seat belt on”
Eight Books I’ve Read Recently
1) The Bible
2) Codependent No More
3) Courage to Change
4) The Complete Book of Food Counts
5) The Language of Love
6) Gone with the Wind
7) 15 Minutes Alone with God
8) SLC Handbook
Eight Songs I Could Listen to Over and Over Again
1) Love Remains - Andy Chrisman
2) What If - Jadon Lavik
3) I'm Not Who I Was - Brandon Heath
4) Lady Magic - Ben Taylor
5) Something In The Way She Moves - James Taylor
6) Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie
7) Does Anybody Hear Her - Casting Crowns
8) Nothing Left To Loose - Mat Kearney
Eight Movies I Have Seen Eight Times (or more…)
1) Gone with the Wind
2) Pride and Prejudice (BBC version, my mother has seen it 50+ times)
3) Say Anything
4) In the Cut
5) The Majestic
6) The Red Violin
7) Titanic
8) Sixteen Candles (but not in about 10 years)
Last, but not least…Eight People Who Should Do This Meme Feel free to play along, everyone! Let me know if you do so I can visit your blog and read your answers. :)
Thanks Chubby Chick
1) my faith in God
2) my husband and marriage
3) my daughter
4) my family and friends
5) my pets Bob our bichon and yellson my cat
6) sewing
7) laundry
8) my work with the disabled
Eight Things I Want to Do Before I Die
1) Be fit and weigh less than 200 lbs!
2) Take a cruise to Bermuda and Alaska
3) Grow my business so big that i don't have to work
4) Get another tattoo
5) Have all my debt paid, including homes and cars
6) Meet my great grand children
7) Go to New York City
8) Be Organized
Eight Things I Say Often
1) “I love you.”
2) “I love you too."
3) “What are you doing?”
4) “Bob needs to go out.”
5) “Did you take Bob out?”
6) “I gotta call my mom”
7) “Honey. . .?”
8) “Put your seat belt on”
Eight Books I’ve Read Recently
1) The Bible
2) Codependent No More
3) Courage to Change
4) The Complete Book of Food Counts
5) The Language of Love
6) Gone with the Wind
7) 15 Minutes Alone with God
8) SLC Handbook
Eight Songs I Could Listen to Over and Over Again
1) Love Remains - Andy Chrisman
2) What If - Jadon Lavik
3) I'm Not Who I Was - Brandon Heath
4) Lady Magic - Ben Taylor
5) Something In The Way She Moves - James Taylor
6) Big Girls Don't Cry - Fergie
7) Does Anybody Hear Her - Casting Crowns
8) Nothing Left To Loose - Mat Kearney
Eight Movies I Have Seen Eight Times (or more…)
1) Gone with the Wind
2) Pride and Prejudice (BBC version, my mother has seen it 50+ times)
3) Say Anything
4) In the Cut
5) The Majestic
6) The Red Violin
7) Titanic
8) Sixteen Candles (but not in about 10 years)
Last, but not least…Eight People Who Should Do This Meme Feel free to play along, everyone! Let me know if you do so I can visit your blog and read your answers. :)
Thanks Chubby Chick
Monday, January 21, 2008
My new plan? One step at a time.
I want to thank everyone that stopped by in reference to my last blog and offered advice and encouragement. I have evaluated this advice and decided that it all is true. I am trying to do too much too soon. I needed to step back and reassess this "lifestyle change" of mine. I have way way too many things going on in my life that are out of control and not succeeding at my diet is just one more thing that i beat myself up about that i felt was also out of control. NOT that eating unhealthy, whatever, whenever was in control, but, I felt so bad because i wanted to do good and wasn't sticking to what at the time was my plan. I do need to make small manageable changes, changes that i can feel in control of and that won't overwhelm an already overwhelmed, frustrated, stressed out and over worked me. The first change is going to be to EXERCISE. Yes, exercise, there i said it. . . . I am going to exercise. I was in such bad shape this time last year. I could barely make it up the 5 steps to our house without being out of breath and my heart racing. I have already become so much more active! We have a two acre piece of property, the other day, Bob (our dog) and I, mini-jogged half the length of it. I wasn't too outta breath and i didn't want to fall out. This is a huge accomplishment for me. So, I plan to exercise at least 20 minutes a day 5 days a week. I will raise this amount as i need to be challenged more and more. The second change i will make is that i will drink more water, I love my sweet tea and it is really hard for me to give it up. I think if I just say, no more sweet tea than i would just drink other high calorie beverages. So I will allow myself my coffee in the morning and a V8 if I'm feeling froggy but the rest of the day i need to stick to water. This all by itself is an ordeal for me, I didn't realize how comforting my sweet tea was to me. I wish i could make the same association with water.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Well, I've done it again, I fell off the wagon. I have no will power, no self control and no respect for myself. Always looking for the easy way out. I hate that about me. I used to think that being an under achiever was a survival technique from childhood, and it may have been, but somewhere along the way it became a way of life. Even being overweight became comforting to me. No one ever expects too much from the fat girl. Overlooked, easily forgotten and passed up.
Monday, January 14, 2008
today wasn't so good food wise, i overdid it quite a bit. I was home all day and of course got bored. I was trying to get some paperwork done and get a little organization going on. I had an interview at 5pm which went well i think but honestly i don't even know if i have the time that this person would require. That was the only time i left the house today. It was nice to spend the day at home with my daughter, i sometimes feel like i don't see her enough. She's outta school Friday and we have made plans for skating on Thursday night and her dad and i will take her to the movies Friday. I have a full day tomorrow so i will have to take my bag so i don't overdo it again.
My cat, yellson, has been especially needy today, maybe he knows that i need extra kitty love but i just wish he'd get off my key board while I'm typing. He's an only kitty again, if he gets bored he can always play with the dog.
My cat, yellson, has been especially needy today, maybe he knows that i need extra kitty love but i just wish he'd get off my key board while I'm typing. He's an only kitty again, if he gets bored he can always play with the dog.
Sunday, January 13, 2008
I woke up to a bad morning. My Gypsy had passed away. She had been sick for a few days and i feared this would happen. She was only about 9 years old. I took a day off from my dieting, I gave myself a free day. Even though it was "free" and i could run a muck i still think i did pretty good. i think i was wanting some comfort foods, I did get a large sweet tea from McDonald's and had a burger for dinner. She was such a good kitty. She used the toilet, how great is that? She will be missed, my sweet little angel.
Saturday, January 12, 2008
All in a days work
Today was a very busy day for me. I woke up at 8am, by the time i showered, packed a lunch bag and collected my things i didn't leave the house til almost 10. I made breakfast when i got to work and warmed up the coffee i had made at the house. I got it too hot and couldn't drink it, it tasked scorched to me. Lynn, the lady i sit with, and I decided to go to the movies (don't hate me because i get paid to go to the movies). We meet my mom at the movies and i shared some of her popcorn, I told myself i wasn't going to buy popcorn. After that we went to chick fil a, her favorite place. I discovered that they have carrot and raisin salad instead of fries and its pretty good. When we got back to Lynn's i barely got her settled when her sister came home and i left there and went straight to Hanna's (another person i work with). She and I talked for a while and then i helped her clean on her room some. After about an hour her mother came home and we all went for dinner. They wanted to go to Tijuana Flats, i had never been before. I got a kids meal because I'm #1 cheap, #2 kids meals are usually enough and #3 i didn't want to invest allot of money in something i didn't know if i was gonna like. i was really impressed with the quality of skinless, harmone free, white meat chicken in the burrito. By the time i got back the Hanna's home and left for home myself it was after 8pm. I think i did very well for being out all day. i took lunch with me just in case i got to Lynn's and she wasn't feeling up to going out. I had a bag full of snacks, some i ate at the movies in an attempt to stay out of the popcorn bucket. I was worried about not being about to eat sensibly when i was out all day but I'm becoming more and more confident that i can do it.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
What's for dinner?
I stepped on the scale this morning and it said 301.2. Wow!! being that close to under 300 made me not want to eat today. I bumped it around on the floor and stepped back on it. . . . 303.2, wooho, i get to eat today!! I tried a few more times and 303.2 each time. I told you those scales are broken.
I'm gonna cook dinner tonight but can't decide what to have, I love mexican and i can make taco's at home and eat till i wanna barf and still not overdo it on the calories. But then again i kinda want to have stir fry. Again i know how to make it so i can eat and not feel deprived and still come in under calorie goal. So I'm off to the store to buy all the making for both, what ever i don't have tonight will be perfect to tomorrow.
I'm gonna cook dinner tonight but can't decide what to have, I love mexican and i can make taco's at home and eat till i wanna barf and still not overdo it on the calories. But then again i kinda want to have stir fry. Again i know how to make it so i can eat and not feel deprived and still come in under calorie goal. So I'm off to the store to buy all the making for both, what ever i don't have tonight will be perfect to tomorrow.
Wednesday, January 9, 2008
Wednesday Weigh In 303.6
So far today has been a much better day than yesterday. I've eaten very sensibly. I have found that it doesn't do me any good to pack a bag and not take it with me. I forgot it again today and by 1pm i was starving. i broke down and ate 3 Reese's miniatures. I went to walmart hungry and bought more than i went in for. So on the ride home i had hot wings from the deli, just two. I've started keeping track again in my fitday and went back to see when i started, April . . . 2002. Almost 6 years, i can't believe it. If i had stuck to it then I'd be a different me now and would've only had a high weight of 285.
I'm trying to have a whole different attitude about it this go around. I'm not going to be so tough on myself, I was thinking and I want to enjoy life and not let food control me. I need to find foods that are good for me and still sensible everywhere. Like today, i was stuck out in the world with no lunch bag, i had to make good choices, and i think i did for the most part. My job is kinda hard on a diet too because I'm at someone else's mercy at times. What if they wanted to go to Cici's? Could i eat at Cici's for less than 2000 calories? I don't know and honestly don't want to test myself to find out, but these things are gonna come up. What if i get stuck in a waiting room for 3 hours like yesterday. I was so hungry i wanted to eat a Meat Lovers Deep Dish Pizza Hut pizza all by myself. I didn't though.
I'm trying to have a whole different attitude about it this go around. I'm not going to be so tough on myself, I was thinking and I want to enjoy life and not let food control me. I need to find foods that are good for me and still sensible everywhere. Like today, i was stuck out in the world with no lunch bag, i had to make good choices, and i think i did for the most part. My job is kinda hard on a diet too because I'm at someone else's mercy at times. What if they wanted to go to Cici's? Could i eat at Cici's for less than 2000 calories? I don't know and honestly don't want to test myself to find out, but these things are gonna come up. What if i get stuck in a waiting room for 3 hours like yesterday. I was so hungry i wanted to eat a Meat Lovers Deep Dish Pizza Hut pizza all by myself. I didn't though.
Lack of Motivation
I just can't seem to pull myself together. i really want to do this, but obviously not bad enough or I'd find a way within me to get it going. I need motivation. What do y'all use for motivation? Help.
Sunday, January 6, 2008
I had great hopes for today. It started out good. I made half a bagel for breakfast with water to drink. I than had to leave for work, i had collected a few snack items in a bag i had planned on bringing along. I also had anticipated being able to go out for lunch. I had wanted to go to subway. On my way to work i dropped half my bagel and it got dirty. I don't like dirty food. When i got to work i found that leaving was not an option. I would be stuck her until someone returned and who knows how long that will be, there was a letter saying they were going to St Augustine after church and as always to help myself to anything in the house. There wasn't too much in the house that i could eat. I ended up with Doritos and sausage. The day isn't over yet, i guess i could make a great rebound and maybe even exercise.
My Healthy me Challenge Introduction
I've always been over weight. My grand mother taught me to appreciate good food. She was a wonderful cook. She showed love by taking care of you and what better way to be taken care of than being fed? I sure was loved! I steady gained an average of 10 pounds a year since i was born. Except when i dieted about 5 years again and lost 40 pounds but i hurt my ankle and quickly undid all the hard work i had done. So, now I'm 34 weigh 306 and miserable. I've only attempted once before to lose weight and was quite successful, i felt great, i could even cross my legs again. (There's me a nonscale goal). I've been trying for about 2 months now to diet again and I just CAN'T. I can't get it going. I've bought all the right foods and done all the research but just can't do it. I'm going to bed now and tomorrow morning is a new day and I WILL DO IT. (not much of an intro, huh?)
What I would like to have happen in my life in 2008
Lose weight - i need to lose allot of pounds but honestly any would be fabulous.
Exercise - Something i don't do enough of, i know if i would just get on my treadmill and get my heart going i would feel 100x better.
Daily Meditation/Devotion - Time for myself and my thoughts. Time to reflect and ponder.
Attend a meeting - at least once a week, i must get back to that, and my step work.
Charge Nothing - I owe, I owe, off to work i go. I will not charge a single nother thing to a charge card and i will work to payoff the ones I've got maxed out now.
Owe less - This goes along with the last. Husband time - I feel bad because I don't spend quality time with my husband. i, we, need to plan more alone time. I've heard that you have to work at marriage, that's true.
Be organized - Oh God, help me!!!
Clean and Orderly House - If the house was in better order I'd be happy. People say, "I just want to be happy" but most couldn't tell you what does it mean to be happy. I can't. A clean and orderly home.
Wash my face - i don't take care of myself, face included. I'm getting older and the signs of age are creeping up on me and my face. i need to commit to a nightly wash before bed, I should moisturize too.
Brush my teeth - Another area i neglect. Brushing once a day would be an improvement. I'd like to take care of my teeth while i still have them all.
Shower Daily - I don't get it, when i was in high school i showered every morning before the sun shined. Now I struggle to shower every other day. Granted, sweating is my least favorite thing but i live in Florida now. Come on Wendi.
Take a vitamin - I think if i found a good multi vitamin I would feel better, i can't take iron so I've just never bothered but I'm missing out on all the other stuff.
Grow my business - Build my business so that i can just do administrative rather that the actually work also.
People Skills - Lord, Father God, help me with this one too. I need to develop finesse when dealing with stupid people, and learn to keep my mouth shut and my ears open. Stop being sarcastic, that never helps.
Use my time more wisely - I'm horrible with my time. i procrastinate everything. I've got paperwork I should be doing right now. What do today what I can put off til tomorrow . . . or the day after that.
Keep my Paperwork up to date - honestly it makes me want to cry. I love my job but the paperwork makes me want to go back to overdrawn whiners at the call center, I will do my paperwork daily!! (once i get caught up)
Stop swearing its not very lady like and it probably makes Jesus sad.
Stop driving like an Idiot, I'm gonna kill somebody or myself. Killing myself defeats the whole purpose of losing weight and being more healthy.
Wear my seat belt every time i get in a moving vehicle, especially if I'm driving.
Exercise - Something i don't do enough of, i know if i would just get on my treadmill and get my heart going i would feel 100x better.
Daily Meditation/Devotion - Time for myself and my thoughts. Time to reflect and ponder.
Attend a meeting - at least once a week, i must get back to that, and my step work.
Charge Nothing - I owe, I owe, off to work i go. I will not charge a single nother thing to a charge card and i will work to payoff the ones I've got maxed out now.
Owe less - This goes along with the last. Husband time - I feel bad because I don't spend quality time with my husband. i, we, need to plan more alone time. I've heard that you have to work at marriage, that's true.
Be organized - Oh God, help me!!!
Clean and Orderly House - If the house was in better order I'd be happy. People say, "I just want to be happy" but most couldn't tell you what does it mean to be happy. I can't. A clean and orderly home.
Wash my face - i don't take care of myself, face included. I'm getting older and the signs of age are creeping up on me and my face. i need to commit to a nightly wash before bed, I should moisturize too.
Brush my teeth - Another area i neglect. Brushing once a day would be an improvement. I'd like to take care of my teeth while i still have them all.
Shower Daily - I don't get it, when i was in high school i showered every morning before the sun shined. Now I struggle to shower every other day. Granted, sweating is my least favorite thing but i live in Florida now. Come on Wendi.
Take a vitamin - I think if i found a good multi vitamin I would feel better, i can't take iron so I've just never bothered but I'm missing out on all the other stuff.
Grow my business - Build my business so that i can just do administrative rather that the actually work also.
People Skills - Lord, Father God, help me with this one too. I need to develop finesse when dealing with stupid people, and learn to keep my mouth shut and my ears open. Stop being sarcastic, that never helps.
Use my time more wisely - I'm horrible with my time. i procrastinate everything. I've got paperwork I should be doing right now. What do today what I can put off til tomorrow . . . or the day after that.
Keep my Paperwork up to date - honestly it makes me want to cry. I love my job but the paperwork makes me want to go back to overdrawn whiners at the call center, I will do my paperwork daily!! (once i get caught up)
Stop swearing its not very lady like and it probably makes Jesus sad.
Stop driving like an Idiot, I'm gonna kill somebody or myself. Killing myself defeats the whole purpose of losing weight and being more healthy.
Wear my seat belt every time i get in a moving vehicle, especially if I'm driving.
Thursday, January 3, 2008
Large sweet tea please
OK, its three full days into '08 and i haven't gotten busy yet. I've heard that you shouldn't start a resolution on the first because you don't stick to it. I guess that's true for me. Honestly I'm miserable! I'm so fat i can't move! I need to stop talking about it and actually DO something about it. My weakness is SWEET TEA! It's evil and I can't get through a day without popping into McDonald's and filling up. That stuff is so sweet you can feel the grit. I'm not sure why its liquid and not a solid, I've seen 'em make it. A 5 pound bag of sugar in a four gallon container. Its so so good. I could go on and on about it. The problem is that I feel like a total failure when i just can't resist it and that makes me eat cheese puffs and pizza. Pizza makes me not want to exercise (not that i do anyway). I've come to the conclusion that I'm just not ready to give up the Tea. i know I should, I really want to, I just can't. Am i an addict? So the plan for tomorrow is to work on the other area's that i can address, stop feeling bad about the tea and control/change what i can.
One of my problems is that i have too many issues that need addressing. I want to fix them all NOW. I get frustrated that I can't just be the person i what to be overnight. i can't do that. i need to take small baby steps, set small manageable goals that I can control and feel like I've achieved something.
One of my problems is that i have too many issues that need addressing. I want to fix them all NOW. I get frustrated that I can't just be the person i what to be overnight. i can't do that. i need to take small baby steps, set small manageable goals that I can control and feel like I've achieved something.
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